I came upon this little list after reading [link] journal.

Why My Life Sucks:
1.I'm not sure if I'll be able to get through college and let everyone down, espically myself.
2.I still freaquntly freak myself out with the fact that the world might in only two more years
3.I'm not happy with my body in certain areas
4.I keep wondering when my parents will accept my orientation and quit saying it's just a phase of that I'm confused
5.I feel so unproductive and should acutally try and help our earth/world even if it's just a small thing instead of just thinking about doing something.

Why My Life Rocks!:
1.I have a family that loves me and is always there for me even when they don't agree with me!
2.I have awsome friends that care about me just as much as I care about them, gee I feel so loved ^__^
3.I have a good job that I enjoy with nice coworkers
4.I have roof over my head even if it's still with my parents, I just have it made for a college student don't I lol
5.I'm loseing weight in my problem areas and it feels good ^__^
6.My optimisim shows no bounds these days because I feel young and I have so much ahead of me that it seems like anything is possible
7.I got two awsome guitars that I love to death <333
8.I have an awsome collection of anime dvd's, Cd's, Posters, and plushies
9.My art mojo is coming back again I keeping having urges to draw whenever I can.
10.I'm just LOVING LIFE and feel happy to be alive ^___^



Soooo yeaaaa I'm feeling real good right now just so much going on. TWO MORE DAYS TILL OTAKON X3! I have my stuff all ready and I'm just waiting around. I have been doodling around and I'll probably have some art work up as soon as I get my lazy but to the scanner and have my pics colored lol Be watching our for a GaaraXLee pic and a few other random ones ^___^.

Hi hi, ohh okay then I tried doing this list a couple summers ago but never got thur it but hey I'm gonna give it a try lol Okay besides that My summer so far has been really chill and fun. I went to the Rehobeth beach a couple of weeks ago and it was loads of fun, I even go myself two little hermit crabs named Bert and Uchiki lol. Right now I just really hyped for Otakon that will be here in a bout three more weeks. Me and my sister are going to be dressing up as the elric brothers, I'm going to be ed and my sis will be Al in a Lolita dress XD. But till then I'm gonna be headin to the pools and beach when I'm not working wooot. Okay enough rambling here is da list.
100 Pic Challenge Theme:

THE LIST:
1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal [link]
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation

Hi hi, I know I never usually post but this lovely day just made me go hey now you should put something on Dev. o.o But anyway, I'm pretty much done with my first year of college...3 more to go @_@ at least I hope so. Anyway I've made some goals for myself this summer and hopefully will be putting up more art on here, even add up some that I've made but haven't upload wooo!

*Couple of months ago*
I"m gonna take a dab at ranting on cuz i'm in serious need of it. I can't keep my mind together and I seriously need to go somewhere that I can just clear my head . I'm not sure where to start but I guess might as well say it started when I was getting ready to transfer from VCU to NVCC back home. Everything was going soothly, I was getting my papers done and everything, I just wanted to do one more thing before going back, and not have the same independence that I did at VCU. I was going to come out to my parents, again. I couldn't help cuz it was getting harder and harder for me to hide. I felt trap in an ideal image they had of me. My mom constantly bothering my about whether i had boyfriend yet and stuff.Anyway when I did come out to them as expected they were shocked (more my dad then anything) and they kept trying to lecture me about how i'm not experienced enough and I should go out with a boy before hand and not to label myself. I got frusterated......But that isn't what isn't what shredded me the most but it was they fact that they were trying to blame other people for why I was thinking this way. They kept repeating ohh it's your friends fault that your that way. Go and make new friends, then you think the same way. It was denial after denial....I can't remember how much I cried that day (This was alll through me talking to them on my cellphone) Funny thing is my mom kept telling my that they were not accepting me but that they were only try to help me not be closed minded. Then she would tell me that even she use to look at other girls and like their body's but that I should learn the difference between admiring and actually wanting. I couldn't handle it ....I know that I had lost something for them that I don't think I can ever get back...and that would be my unwaivering trust. I"ll never stop loving them but I just can't ever come to them now when i'm troubled because I have to say this would be the second time that I've felt like they rejected me. I'm sure they didn't mean to but what is done is done......

*Present Time**
This has been bothering my since i've gotten back but on top of that I've found out that all my class have been drop in NVCC. Because apparently they didn't get the money from financial aid that we had to give. And we don't have the money right now pay. My mom has been harping on me to fix it but I don't know what else to do except go to the office and see if there is someway make like a payment plan. Everything I try to make happen here seems to fall apart right in my hands....I keep trying to make it work but it just isn't good enough. I feel Like i've wasted all this time, I 'm not even sure what I want anymore ....I want to leave again but not back to VCU. I was really looking forward to just gather some more credits so I could transfer to GMU but now I'm Not sure I'll be able to. I want to start anew there but its seem that each time i build to go up there Something underneath me breaks and I tumble all the way back down. I'm being driven insane.....The only mean of not completely losing it is when i'm hanging out with my friends, when i'm on the internet or drawing while i'm listening to my Ipod. Cuz when i'm not doing those things I get overwhelmed that this is all my fault...and i know it is because I should known what to do to keep going...I absolutely hate giving up...I just can't....and even if i can't make this semester i'm still going during summer but i don't know if that will be enough to get into GMU.....I just really need to punch something or just screammmmmmmm but.....I can't.....I wish i could cry it all out but nothing comes out. so i'll just keep it inside till i can a find a way to let it out....God i'm just so arghhhh....anyway i'm going to eat breakfast now and be amazed that i actually ranted

1. Choose a few of your own characters. Five at the most.
2. Make them answer the following questions.
3. Then tag three people.
4. Feel free to go ahead and add some questions yourself!!

OCs: They were originally made for D&D but weren't used but! I still lurv them!
Terri
Keith (formerly was Damion)
Allen (formerly known as The Baruk-meaning the axe)
May
J:

Boy or girl?
Terri: Woo hoo my favorite game! I always win
Keith: Now am I going to have to take your shirt off to show'em , ahem I'm a boy
Allen: DON'T YOU DARE TOUCH SIR TERRI! I ALLEN WILL KEEP TERRI SAFE!
May: Come down pipsqueak they can do whatever they want, I'm a girl ^-^V
J:I rather not anwser that question unless you want to go get a bite to eat *wink*

How old are you?
Terri: *Blush* umm just ..KEITH GET YOUR HAND OUTTA THERE! uhm
Keith:Come on we are of age hobbits now don't shy away from me. ^__^
Allen: *muffle muffle*
May: I had to tie him up,he's a youngin bout 15 yrs, me I'm 20, mature and beautiful
J: Please sister don't you call that beauty, don't make my laugh! *get hit on the head*>W<

What do you think your life expectancy is?
Terri: *dusting hands off* As long as I have to, so I can complete my mission to avenge my family and kill the goblin king!
Keith: *tied in a knot* X_X I'm not sure especially with this kind of treatment
Allen: mufff ..MUFFFFFFf *his mouth is gag but he said "I live to HELP SIR TERRI AVENGE!"*
May: Eehh I'll live on as long as my bag is full of money
J:...I'll live as long as I am remembered by all the Lovely maidens in the world *eyes sparkle*

What's your height?
Terri:Three feet tall ^-^
Keith:Three five just enough to hover a little *grins at terri*
Allen: I'm the same height as sir terri WHICH IS BETTER THEN HOVERING DX
May:5'2 just the right height boys ^_^
J:5'5

What is your job?
Terri: A paladin, here to swore off evil *dramatic pose*
Keith: Sorcerer
Allen:WARRIOR!
May: Rouge *terri shouts* "LIKE ROBION HOOD RIGHT?!" sure sure keep tell yourself that
J:Archer

What is your favorite color?
Terri: hmmm never thought of that
Keith: come on you know it's blue ,like my eyes *grin*
Allen: Silver!
May: Gold the color of money ^___^
J:Red for passion! *get hit by may* @_@

What's your favorite food?
Terri: CHEESE O__O
Keith:Terri >
Allen: MEAT
May: anything that costs a lot
J:Whatever a lovely lady makes for me

What's your favorite ice cream flavor?
Terri:Uhh wats that ?_?
Keith: I knew cream could be flavored but ice?
Allen:I HATE ANYTHING COLD >_<
May:Sounds expensive 0_0
J: no comment -_-;

Have you killed anyone?
Terri: No but if there is no other way...
Keith: *shrugs* yeah
Allen: mmmm meat
May: ewww! anyway yes of course
J:Can't avoid it when your target practicing

Do you hate anyone?
Terri: GOBLIN KING I"LL GET YOU!
Keith: Anyone who gets in my way
Allen: KEITH!
May: ehh anyone who is richer then me
J: *mutters something* I'd rather not say

Have any secrets?
Terri:^__^
Keith: Not that I can recall
Allen:.....I...I....I AM SMALL WAHH
May: Not saying anything
J: *hiding* their gonnna find me I know it *shiffy eyes*

Do you love anyone?
Terri: ummm.....humph I'm not saying it
Keith: *grin* aww come on let it out you know you want to
Allen: my love will for ever be in silence
May:hahah everyone knows your obsessed with terri, as for me I have no restriction like that ^__^
J: I'll find her someday

What do you do to relax?
Terri:Swimming is always fun
Keith:So is watching ^_^
Allen: *being held back by may: GRRRRR
May: Counting my money
J:Sleeping *grin*

Now what are you going to do?
Terri:I have a strange craving for cheese now hmm
Keith:*grabs terri and runs off*
Allen: HEY WERE ARE YOU TAKING SIR TERRI! GET YOU HANDS OFF 'EM*runs after them*
May:*is already of near the closest market place*
J:*flirting with the pretty girls in town*

Hehe they are such a strange group . To clear somethings up
Terri is my cross dressing paladin that I came up with all the way back in sophomore high school. I have pictures i drew of him and will but them up eventually . Keith is actually the reincarnation of daimon, terri's former lover.If you ask me they made a few adjustments to him -__-:. Allen is a young ,small, adorable little dwarf fan boy of Terri's.He gets very possessive of him and gets angry very easily. May is a half-elf along with her twin (*cough*sister*cough*) Brother J. They actually act almost the same even if they hate admitting it. I'll give more info once I up load each of their portraits i made for them ^_^

I tag anyone who wants to take this ^-^